Good posts. I too have been depressed, and went under a physician's care and medication for a few months. I know what it feels like to have things fall apart, and how one can blame oneself.... "it must be my lack, right?" So I suggest starting with your physician. Mine wrote me a note for a month off work, which really helped at the time.
Allow yourself this time to "lean into the pain", as they say in my spiritual tradition. I got my nose pierced, cut off all my hair. Looking back, should have done even more!
For the working out, two workouts seem the best at calming, centering, and giving one more peace of mind .(in my opinion). They are swimming and yoga. There is nothing like doing your age in laps (that's always my goal), and the way you feel when you get out of the pool. No pools around? Yoga will do. Lifting weights is good, too, empowering, energizing.
I know that words mean so little during this time. But please indulge yourself just a bit. Get a facial, get a Siamese cat, take a short trip. Mother Nature is a great healer, so get outdoors as much as you can into her beauty.
Just know that a year from this date, all will be different. Trust me on that. AK
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